PhotoChitect

Caught IN! …and off…

I’ve always been living with a camera since I was 10 years old. By that time, it was only a small compact camera with film. I still keep my first work and it’s so ludicrous cuz all of the people’s head are just as small as an ant. I didn’t know about zoom in, or maybe my cam didn’t have it. In total, my camera (that has been changing several times because of several cases) and I have been together for about 17 years, and we’re still going on.

17 years! That’s how old my homeroom kids are now. So this is the reason I made that drawing. I guess my mindset has been stuck inside a camera. I can’t think of other activity not related with taking pictures. But in the other perspective, that could also be my stupidity, as if I were a frog inside a piece of coconut shell (katak dalam tempurung gitu loh maksudnya). I can’t picture myself bigger than just being a photographer. Not to underestimate photographer, but my daily routine now has become a hindrance for me to be one. So I have to face the fact that today I can’t become a photographer. But what happens today is the best, so for my context, there’s something better than being in that profession.

As I’ve set down some problems I found at my workplace, now I can keep it low and relax. Taking Kung Fu Panda’s term, I’ve found my “inner peace” so I can continue planning about my life. No matter what, the passion of keeping one eye behind a view finder is still within me. But I’ve now got my calling that every talent needs to be explored. I can’t grab all in once, so I take turn (my practical thinking). Thanks to every lens that has taught me to focus. Use one eye only and close the other one. My view will be more narrow and tight, but is easier to spot. And now, I hear many songs when I see through my lens. So this time, I’ll just do it. It will take longer process than photo editing or even photo album editing. But I’ll do it. And anyway, my parents said that 9 months old and I had sung a song. So…okay, if this is about the time, I should give it a try.

And what about my camera? My image as Photochitect? Oh well, I’m sure it will always stay the same. I lost my cams once and I lost some photo clients too, but I’m still on it. So let’s say, I’m not afraid of losing it again. It will come back. Remember, I’m not just caught. I’m already caught in! :D